Starting Today and For the next 30 DAYS I will be eating "clean," posting helpful tips and thoughts, and joining many women to help them get going on their goals. Feel Free to post comments and note: I will be posting my weak moments as well!
After listening to leaders from my church who spoke to the world last weekend (lds.org) in General Conference, I can say that I know there is a loving Heavenly Father. Some spoke of angels, both heavenly and earthly, and after saying my prayers tonight I got such peace thinking of those who are watching over my sweet nephew Daner. Dane was diagnosed with AML, Adult Leukemia and is undergoing intense chemotherapy. My heart aches for him so much during the day. I just keep picturing ancestors that have gone on, watching and staying by his side as he endures this great pain and suffering. I am so grateful to be a member of God's Church and to have a prophet and apostles who are praying to teach and tell us what we need in our lives. Every speaker touched my soul, healed my heart, and gave me a new since of hope!
I want everyone to feel it, and every person I speak with I think how I want them to have this knowledge, guidance, and help. I feel humbled to think of Saints all across the world suffering from disaster, who also are suffering, and all the things that we think are important just don't matter anymore.... I don't want to spend a dime on anything... how can I when there is "someone in need?" The monetary things don't matter, it's about loving and helping those in need. Now it's just convincing my children and setting that example. I know who I am, why I am here, and where I am going! What a blessing!!!!!
.... simply reflecting on the past few weeks of my life.... my perspectives, expectations, desires... and within just a few simple weeks have been humbled and changed my views in so many ways! Big new houses, kids running, and that are very athletic, etc. So many expectations for myself and my kids!.. Looking on the internet for the next tropical vacation..... all this is completely insignificant in the big picture!
About 6 weeks ago my best friend and little sister gave birth to baby 3. This gal has been dealt her cards of challenges... she lost her first baby after a few hours of life. Husband lost his job, their home feel through, and so much more on her plate..... waiting for this perfect little boy to arrive and find out only moments of actually making it full term, her baby was born with a brain disorder. 27 day's in the NICU, to be told daily that he may never walk, that he may have seizures throughout his life, and even may never speak and that they will have to learn sign language. And yet holding this sweet baby, and knowing it will be an accomplishment or even miracle to prove these doctors wrong, has changed my life!
In a few weeks they will literally be in a home less than a 1/4 mile away. And just day's before her birth we felt we needed a bigger home, were looking for land, ready to build. And now, none of that matters! I can't find it a fluke that in this time of our lives, God did not have his hand in this?
I have been more than humbled, I have children that speak, swallow, run, write. I have a roof over my head, cars that work, a loving husband who is an amazing father! My trials that once seemed unbearable are completely insignificant!
I love John Bytheway's talk, "5 scriptures that will help you through almost anything!" He talks of life being like a 3 act play... preexistence, now, and life after death.... This part of the act is only for, "a moment" in the big picture! What reassurance the God loves us, that this angel is going to bless us and be perfect in the next life. I can't help but feel God's love in our lives!
Fresh "Powder" doesn't come often but we were sure glad to take advantage of it this year! WHoo Hooo.... Season Passes are paying off! And thanks to my awesome hubby for alway pushing us out the door to play!
He pulled our kids behind his truck all over the neighborhood on their snowboards all evening when we were "snowed in!"
My... time is flying by! My "Ry-Guy" turned 11 years old! Only 8 more years and he'll be on his mission. I'm embarrassed to say I already cry when I think of him leaving.
His spirit really is older and wiser than mine! He behave's like a 40 yr old at time. We left him for about 20 minutes to babysit Sky who wasn't feeling well so I could run to my sisters and Kip could get her some sprite. In that 20 minutes Sky had lost her cookies.... he had picked up and straitened the house and swept the floors.
This kid love's skating!!!! He skates or watches someone skate on the internet 90% of his free time! He's has hit the pre-teen years but I love that he'll still imagine and pretend with his younger siblings! His creativity puts mine to shame! He's an amazing artist and is always thinking outside the box!
Hugs to my wonderful Ryland.... Happy Birthday!
Yesterday I was released from my primary chorister calling and into Enrichment ... "again" yes you can ALL laugh who have seen me serve this calling over and over all over the US! I was sad to see all the kids rush from the Chapel to Primary without me! I never thought I could love other's kids as much as my own, but I definitely felt this way.
I will miss Jessica Lassen snuggling on my lap, anxious participation from Timothy Tickal, funny comments from Kate Harmon, and many more! These kids are truly heaven sent and were a huge blessing for 2 years in my life....
Every night I settle into bed, say my prayers, try to count all the blessing of the day, and listen to the "Mormon Channel" on my I-phone to Conference talks! What a wonderful time to ponder, reflect, and be uplifted. This week I listened to Pres. Monson's Conference talk for Fall 2008 called Finding Joy in the Journey!
A little over a month ago after being crammed packed with photo shoots and fitting Zumba, volunteering at the school... etc. I realized these were all good thing but something had to go. So I eliminated teaching at the gym, scheduled myself to be at home more with the kids and to try to spend quality and "non-stress time" with them. To organize my schedule with my family FIRST!
This talk reassured me of what I was doing and made me appreciate my commitment to my family. I think off all the years, rushing through the day thinking that "tomorrow" will be better, "tomorrow" we'll DO better, tomorrow we'll make more money, "tomorrow" we'll be out of dental school, ...
and I love his quote. "....if you live for the tomorrows, you'll wake up and find you only have a whole lot of empty yesterdays!"
Isn't this true...! Now is the day, to have fun, enjoy the moment, soak up everything your kids do. I often think of Sis. Hinckley saying... she'd rather laugh her way through than cry! What a great outlook!
I've only have today, once! By darn, "I'm going to love it!" This is my new motto to live by for the new year!
So I hope I don't forget much... I will summarize!...
Kid's started school, 1,2, & 5th grades. 1 Preschooler. Ashtyn turned 9 in Sept. Brie turned 2 in Nov. Soccer, Soccer, Soccer! Ryland made the travel soccer team which has been great! We even squeezed a "beach trip" in for one of Ry's soccer tournaments this fall! Kip coached Renn's soccer team, and all the kids participated in Tumbling! Add that with achievement day girls, cub scouts, teaching Zumba, and close to 75 photo shoots, we've been busy! We even fit many skate park adventures in between that! We had "Grandma & Papa" come visit, built a fireplace with us and create some more Christmas decorations for the dental office at Kip work. We've worked, played, and really are enjoying some down time with the kids for the winter months! Time is flying by!
I've cut back teaching at the gym to allow myself more balance between photography and being a mom. My kids pretend their me sitting at the computer editing while talking to clients or family on my cell phone! But I only edit when they are sleeping or kids at school and baby napping for the most part. At least that's my goal.
Hoping to get a "getaway" this winter with Kip and maybe the kids!
I've had overwhelming feelings of gratitude the past few weeks! I've had such a wonderful life with incredible friends who are so dear to me. From college roomies to neighbors, I love and miss them all. This time of year I love getting Christmas cards and usually cry because I miss everyone! I "adore" Kip but I do miss my "girls!" Life is great, I know we are supposed to be here in the "boro." Kip is happy here and finding much success in his dental practice.
So with ALL that said hopefully I can catch you up with just a few photos...
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